I’m taking a 30-Day writing challenge with this guy https://goinswriter.com/blog/. The challenge is to write 500 words a day. This is day ten and I’ve yet to write 500 words.
The challenge today is to write about writing. I’ve been writing since I was a child. I don’t have volumes of notebooks filled with awesome stories. I’ve never been published. But in some form or fashion, it feels like I’ve been writing forever. And the urge to do it won’t go away.
Lately, I have a sense in my prayer time that I keep asking God for something He’s already given me. A moot request considering that, even if it’s something I could have more of, He probably wouldn’t give me more if I won’t even work with what I have. I think it’s a side effect of my active imagination, my affinity for action movies and the sensory overload society we live in. What I mean is that I think deep down, I’m still looking for explosions and fireworks and the dancing flatware from Beauty and the Beast when He answers a prayer. But there’s a reason He came to Elijah in a still small voice. And a reason that we read in Psalms to be still and know that He is God. Sometimes, there will be no fanfare in the answer. Jesus was, after all, born in a manger. No welcoming party. No lightning and thunder. No dancing flatware.
This, of course, doesn’t limit God. He can bang! zoom! lightning thunder if He wants to. I imagine that the Red Sea splitting open to reveal dry ground and then swallowing up the enemy’s army was no discreet event. But I limit God and certainly myself if I only expect the former. If I’m only receptive to God when he blesses with a bang, I miss out and waste time asking for what I already have.
What does this have to do with writing? I quite often ask God to get me closer to my destiny. He says, “write”. I ask God for my next step. He says, “write”. I ask God to give me what I need to move forward. He says, “Everything you need is already in you.” I keep asking. Maybe it’s because I don’t really believe that He would bless me that way – silently, innately, sans fireworks. Maybe I would want to kick myself if I believed that what I want, I already had, and wasted time ignoring. Whatever the reason, today I choose to respond to what’s inside me, no matter how small it may seem. Today I commit to hearing what He says, believing it, moving forward with it and embracing that, yes, it’s in me.
What’s in you that you’ve ignored? What have you asked for that you already have? What did you miss because it didn’t come like you wanted it to?
Respond to what’s in you today. It’s probably pretty awesome.
(492 words not including this sentence…)